365 Days of Writing- Day 3: Am I Content

Day 3- Am I Content 

 

Contentment can be hard to reach. After learning and accepting that my life is not what I thought it would be. No one ever thinks they are going to be the one that comes down with a rare medical issue. Four years ago when I married Bryan, if someone asked what I thought the next few years would hold for us- I would have said maintaining our boring low key lives and starting a family, maybe returning to school.

Letting go of what I thought my life would be like has been the hardest part of this journey. But throughout this process is have found my strength. I have also found my voice. I have had the opportunity to talk to and befriend amazing people that without GBS I would have never “met”. I have to believe that everything happens for a reason. I can confidentiality say that I’m content in this life that I’m blessed to live. To truly be surrounded in love and to know how precious my life is.

This Tim McGraw song is beautiful and fits in with how I feel perfectly ❤❤

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365 Days of Writing: Day 2- What I'm most grateful for

Day 2: What I'm most grateful for

 

Having a chronic illness really made be appreciate what I have in life. I know how lucky I am to have such an amazing, devoted husband. A dad who is there when I need him and to fill both the mother and father roll. Hands down I could not have survived my hospital stay without my dad and Bryan. I will forever be grateful for them for always putting me first.

 

January 2015- Bryan and I... I had no idea how I looked, I thought I was smiling. This was when my eyes first opened after being closed for 5 weeks... but then they wouldn't close for months.

 

Dad and I on our "Independence day" from Sutter- Roseville Rehab 

 

Both Bryan and Dad trying to but my hair in a pony tail lol.

My family; aunts, uncles, cousins, siblings, my nieces and nephews, friends who have become Family, my community and so much more.

 

My cousin Kasie and Aunt Kim camped out in my room in the ICU

 

Kasie, my aunt Leann and grandma visiting me after I was transferred to Sutter- Roseville Rehab... I'm definitely grateful to have my smile back and to not have a catheter 😬

I have a place to call home. Plenty of munchkins to love and spoil. The best and fattest dog who loves me. I can take care of myself- wipe my own ass (yay), drive again. I feel like I'm finally on the path to getting my life back.

 

Photo by- Matt Sanchez 

 

Sage and I- March 2016... Photo by- Matt Sanchez

I can open and close my eyes when I chose. I can breathe on my own and not depend on a machine. I can tell the ones that I love how much they meen to me. I can walk. There is so much to be grateful for. 

I'm a lucky lady and so very blessed to get a second chance at life. There is always something to be grateful for!

 

365 Days of Writing- Day 1: My number one goal this year

 

'Tis the season of New Year's Resolutions. I wanted one for my blog and to get me in the habit of writing every day. My goal it to write about something everyday.At the first of the month I will post my monthly writing prompts. 

 

I hope to be writing a lot more about my experience and challenges with Guillain Barré and living with a chronic illness. This May I will also be picking back up "The Faces of Guillain Barré. I'm hoping to be able to post updates from everyone I featured in 2016 along with new stories of other fighters and their families.

 

I look forward to connecting with more people on the same path of life that I am. As always I'm excited to help as many people as I can. If there are any subjects you would like me to write about, feel free to send my your ideas and questions. I try to be real and honest in the hopes of helping others. 

I have never felt comfortable writing but this blog has helped me heal in many ways. My Guillain Barré experience is starting to feel more like a dream... sometimes a nightmare but it's finally doesn't hurt as much to think or talk about. For that I'm thankful but I do want to write down as much as possible about the past two years while it is still fresh.